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Sunday, December 12, 2010
Today is a sad day! Decided to bring my lychee to vet as I see her infected part is getting worse. And also she is become skinner until like bones. First time to vet, and people bring dogs, cats, bird. But i bring hamster. So strange.And also the doc is call pet name not the owner name. So when doc call lychee , I was a bit paisey. Haha...
And doc super drama, tell me: " I know is cruel . But I cant lie to you. Is cancer. Breast cancer. Unfortunately!".
And I finally understand how those pple in show when hear the word cancer, how they feel. Is 晴天霹雳! At the moment, I feel like crying. Why lychee have to so poor thing? Doc tell me cant be treated le. Can only give me medicine for her, to relieve pain. But sad thing is she maybe cant live past CNY. Bec the tumour is spreading. And doc still console me say as long she is eating, let her remain life to be happy. enjoy when she can.
I even ask the doctor if I was to bring her earlier, bec is only swollen part at intial, can it be cured. He say chance of curing it will be higher as she need to go through surgery. But if in the surgery, she cant withstand the antispectics she could pass away also in the surgery. Doc still console me:'Dont be sad. You should know hamster lifespan. I can see her still lively. If as long she is eating, is still ok. But when she stopped eating, it is the time for her to leave. "
I really feel like xing qing cheng zhong. I know is drama, but i feel like crying.
Anyway, I spend $79 on that. And to be honestly speaking, I know I am stupid. But I bring her to vet purpose is to cure her. I dont mind if the $79 can cure her. But now it turns out it cant. And now worse is, is heart pain for me to see her suffering. I have to feed her medicine and apply cream for her. Seeing her cant walk properly, cant run on the wheel just make me feel so so so so sad! What I can do , is to acc her. And she is like so weak until she cant climb up and sit in the food container. And I have to pour out some food for her. Haix...
My poor lychee...
Anyway, went to fossil warehouse sales . And me bought a watch. But with karen there, Is quite cheap. Bec gt other brands, addidas, armani, DKNY, marco jacobs, philip starck. On top of that, Karen still have 35% off. And me buy a fossil watch and a keychain. Too bad we went around evening so all good things kanna no more le. And gi buy 2 watches. I guess she is happy but heart broken. I spend $200 today for shopping of watches, shoes and chocolates and include my lychee fees. And tmr still have to go buy christmas present. And now is what date? 12 only. 18 days to pay day and i starting to feel broke le. OMG! how to survie??????
Still rem when lychee was a mother before. Yet now... haix.
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